Hidden In My Heart

Little by little river flow to sea,

It just like feeling towards on you,

I just wish to hug you,

And together see the rainbow at top of the hill,

There is something hidden in my heart.

From the bottom of my broken heart,

You always persuade and support me,

I feel proud that I had you,

Because you are the greatest girlfriend in the world,

You are the part that hidden in my heart.

Silent night could be the best for us,

Piano that I always wish to learn,

Play a love song in front of you,

Just to propose my love to you,

Be my wife is always hidden in my heart.

View sunset is the best moment with you,

We had shared coconut drink,

Could be this moment pause for it forever,

Because I want stay with you forever,

It had hidden in my heart.

Is The Day I Start To Say I Love You

Love story had started since 8 months ago,

Total days that i saw you less than 30 days,

Some people said 2703 is the number to buy for horse racing,

But, it is the day we start our love story,

Is the day I start to say I love you.

Every morning couple of birds are singing,

But, i just have to message her to say Good Morning,

A hug and kiss was just a dream for you and me,

Every words we chat is all by phone,

Is the day I start to say I love you.

Distance of our relationship make us more apart,

Bless and support from you always i received,

T-shirts that you give always warm me when i wore,

Argue always make me more understand each other,

Is the day I start to say I love you.

Falling Slowly

'Falling slowly' is the song written and performed by Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova from the movie 'Once'. It also the first couple song for me and Shane. Next week is half year anniversary for us. Usually we just wishing for it. Another few weeks i will meet my girlfriend. I really miss her so much. Even though i can only meet her for a week but is really meaningful for us. It will be my convocation celebration, celebrate my girlfriend birthday and the first time that my girlfriend meet my parents. She always tell me she very nervous and scare that my parents dislike her. I just tell her do not scare. I will always be your defending wall. No matter what happen i will beside you.

'Falling slowly' will be the first duet we sing. My girlfriend love this song so much. She ask me to learn to sing this song. I tell her that my voice not good in singing. She seems do not care of it and tell me to learn only. Falling slowly was like to fall in love each other step by step. Time will let you know how you love it.

Fall In Love

Another 11 days, i and my girlfriend had been together for 6 months. Time passes so fast that we had together for 6 months. 6 months we together but we just had meet for a month and 5 months we had long distance relationship. For the past few months i really suffer. I miss her so much and i always think when i could meet her. Everyday i just could message her or just webcam to see each other. Internet line at Sabah is more worse than we thought and sometimes my girlfriend could not on for the messenger. I love her so much. Time we had together is very short but the obstacles that we overcome is too much. In future, there had more and more obstacle to overcome for it...haha...Love u so much dear!!!Another one month left from today is our birthday. I'm sorry that i could not celebrate birthday with you. I hope that i could celebrate early birthday with you. Gominawo oku dika!!!muacks

Good or Bad Bf

For the past few months, a question always came across my mind how to be a good boyfriend? It is very easy to answer. Take care your girlfriend, protect your girlfriend, understand her feeling, and when she is unhappy you must be right beside her. It is easy to answer but have i ever done all this before. I admit that i never done this before. I and my girlfriend have been for 5 months but we have been together for the first month. The left i was at KL for my industrial training and find my job. I really not even at her side when she doing her research at island. I feel i very worst boyfriend that i ever knew. My dear, i'm very sorry for it!!!Last week, you had gastric. Vomit and faint, i also not there. I just knew by your message. I really disappointed myself why i was not at there when you sick plus i just only advice you. Huhu!!!For yesterday incident i also apologize to you. I treat my junior as a friend. Actually, i really caring all my friend. Any friends need help i will tried my best to help them. Maybe this is my principle of my life. Has a friend better than have 10 enemy. Today morning i know that u will angry of me. I really never saw you angry before until like this. I do not know how to make you happy of it and i not at your side also. I just know how to say sorry. I know no matter how i explain you will angry of it. Once wrong is wrong. I'm sorry my dear. I not a good boyfriend ever in you dictionary also. I just know sms and call you to care of you only. After my convo, i will try my best more often back to visit u. I'm sorry!!!

Do You Believe Long Distance Relantionship?

Whole day i asked myself one question do you believe in long distance relationship? Because of this question i almost had a small argued with my girl friend. I really give her too many promises until i feel that she hardly trust me. At first i tell her once i finish my internship i will back to KK meet her. But, now i still stay at KL without doing anything. Now, my dad tell me to work at KL but it seems easier for me to earn the money. Work at KK really hard because the salary is too low for me. I had promised her that i will start everything once i work at KL. This few days i already settle down to work at KL. Once i set for this answer, it makes my relationship with my girl friend become long distance. I really make her much disappointed my girl friend. The way i talk to her i really feel it. This time i really hurt her. No matter how i make her happy is no used anymore. I want her to trust me that i work at KL i still love her. From today i said this, tomorrow and forever is still the same word i will tell her I love you.

Do you believe in long distance relationship? Even herself no believe at all. She hurt before because of long distance relationship. I wanna tell her this time i really need you fully to trust me that i really in believe in this. Is already 3 months i did not meet my girl friend. I could tell you that i really miss her. Who said i do not want to meet her? If i have money to buy my flight ticket sure i will go meet her right now. Everyday before i sleep, i will think what will happen to our relationship on tomorrow. I feel like i'm very worst right now. Nothing i can help to prove it. Baby girl, should i say sorry to this that i break the promise i not coming to KK for work? 5 years only baby girl. Just give me 5 years everything will be back as the promise i tell you. Is that ok for 5 years?

Many friends told me why i do not want to bring my girl friend to KL. This matter i had think before. It really not work. My girl friend really scared to meet people plus she really dislike to communicate with other people at all. The safety in KL i could say 5 times worst than KK. Her safety work in KL i have to care of it. I also not allowed for her to work at KL. She could be easily get lie by other people. Dear, i just want you to believe in this. Maybe our fate is important but i trust this relationship will be much better for each year in long distance relationship. Dear, I love you!!!

Kiss The Rain

Wow...Is almost 2 months i had never updated my blog at all. Today i start to update my blog again. Hear the music Kiss The Rain by Yiruma really build up my mood to update the blog. From this music it had remind me on May 18 is the last day i meet my girlfriend. As i remember that day was still sunny day. Early morning, i have to go Hospital Likas all the way to meet my girlfriend. It was the first time i saw her that she wear the t-shirt i bought to her. I was very happy to see her wear it and she was pretty that day.

It was very hard for me to say goodbye to her because saying goodbye means i will never return back again. I'm not saying goodbye to her is to tell her that i will always at her side to accompany her. That's where we start our long relationship distance until now. I also do not know when will i back to meet her. I admit i really miss her.

Last week, she told me what will do for the first thing if see her. I say i will hug her and said i would not and forever let her alone. By hearing her voice once a week, is very happy for me but i really miss her cutie face.Haha...Kiss the rain

Kiss The Rain tell me that song the alone stand in rain feel very sad. Stand in rain alone it really become wet and need wait for the partner to come and bring umbrella to shade for her. Unfortunately, this girl wait and wait until exhausted while kiss the rain. Cry at the rain no people will see. She feel herself very lonely and lonely.

My dear, for this song is really sad. But, i promise you i will tell you all my plan and i would not leave you alone at there.I want you right with me...

Thesis Thesis Thesis!!!

At last i submit my thesis and left just internship for 2 months. Then, i will be officially graduate for my bachelor course. When i hand up my thesis at office, i knew that i had finished with final year project! My feeling was so great and i said to myself that I did it. For complete my this thesis, i have to thanks my parents who always support me especially in financial problem. Thesis really made me wasted lot of money. I also need to thanks to my uni friends who always told me do not give up with. You are the best for me!!! Lastly, i have to thanks to my girlfriend. She always at my side heard all my excuse of thesis, stress and my bad attitude. She really could stand my anger because of thesis. I really have to thanks to her. Shane, you really help me a lot for doing thesis and always advice to calm down to finish up it. You always tell me do not extend my study because of thesis. Your message really encouraged me.

Another 7 hours i'm going back to KL. I really miss my home and my parents. This time i back KL will going internship at Klang. Hopefully, my internship will be success. My feelings feel good that i back KL but i really feel sad and hardly say goodbye to my girlfriend. It will be going 2 months i did not see her. Shane, once i finish internship i will come to Sabah to meet you and find permanent job at here.Ok?

Few Days Before Graduate

Today i had release all my stress. I had finish my viva presentation but i also had to thanks to my parents and friends to give me support. For this final year project, i do not have enough sleep for few months since early of December last year. But, i would not forget to thanks my gf, Shane who always beside me and support me.Because of you, i feel myself more spirit to come over this presentation. Very very thanks for you!
On 11 May which on Tuesday, it could be one of the most wonderful day or as one of the sad day for me. It was a wonderful day for me because it was my happiest date with my girlfriend but sad day for me it was the last date for me with her before i going my internship at KL for next two weeks. It was my first time to visit zoo in Sabah. It was nice and God give us wonderful weather to had a walk at zoo. Time has past very fast. Even such a wonderful day for us but at the end of that is so hardly for me to say goodbye to her. Tears never come from my eye but come from my heart to say it. That was the last time i date with her before i graduate. I love you!!!
I also have to say goodbye to all my friend in university. Thanks that you all had help me a lot. All of you are my relative when i at Sabah. I'm say sorry if i had did something wrong to you when in uni. I also said thanks for helping me so much!!!
Is already 3 years i stay at Sabah. It feels like i come at Sabah just for few months ago. I still remember what had happened when i first step to come out from the KK airport. How i recognise my first friend in Sabah, Yee Chi...He's the man that i ever know. He really could be my 2nd girlfriend for me. I always share my things with him. How i knew Chee Aun and Ah Fei? How i become most naughty student in my faculty?Haha...3 years just slip away. After this all of us have to pursue our future. Built our own road to go for future, has family and many things.

True Love

What is love?Hard to find it out. Is it that spend our life happily with your partner that is called love? How people sacrifice their love? Love really have many meaning for me. But, i just found out my true love. She is the last one and my last love. Our fate is depending on the time which after 5 years from now on. I admit in my whole life i had done many wrong things but i sure that never done anything wrong to her. She is really special for me. What she like i will try my best to get over for it. Remember, get something with not using money. Whatever say about money she will waste and how we going to save it for 5 years. Haha...That's we really less to go out and meet each other. Next week Monday, it was her last paper of the exam and could be the last time i meet her in university. Of course i deeply very sad because meet her for the last time. After her exam, i will help her to do final year project at Sapi Island. Then, we will separate for 2months only could meet again. That's really our test. We will never meet at all and even a call for 2 months. As i said before, she really dislike people to call. Anywhere, this will make me much worry of her. If anything happen to her, i think she would not tell me of it. Maybe drop by sms to tell me that she will be okay. Anyway, i could not imagine my life for 2 months without her. I have to thanks to her to change many bad things from me. I just wanna plan a special and memorable date for us before i back to KL. For a day i did not seen her i much miss her. I wanna tell you that I love you!!!

Love Story of The First Month

Time passed very fast and never knew that is already a month that we had together.Haha...My girlfriend, Happy 1st month annivesary. We do not plan any celebration at all because busy of exam. Maybe we celebrate this annivesary with exam papers.Haha...In this 1 month, we have tried to our relationship more deeper and deeper. Jokes and advice make us feel our relationship more wonderful. We had our 1st date at the largest shopping mall at 1borneo. Our 1st date movie to watch never thought was horror movie which we could imagine not as horror as we wanted. Haha...That's the best day we went date for it. My girlfriend was quite a big bully to me but i feel it was funny and could not resist from laughing. We also try to change our bad attitude which i try to become more hygiene. For her, this is the most important. I also had received the first gift from her which is a quite and black bracer. She told me to wear it all the times because it represent her to be with me all the times. In the 2nd week of our relationship, she dedicated a song for our relationship which is 'Falling Slowly'.For this 1st month i heard some comment from friend. Hey, i heard that you have girlfriend and where she is come from. I answered and from Penampang. Once my friend heard that he was shock and said the most expensive girl in Sabah was Penampang girl. I told my friend that our love not count as money but by our sincere heart. I poor also try to save and earn the money and to give her to most warm family that she ever get. We really seldom meet each other and just drop by sms. But, it could make our relationship more last longer. What can i do?I do not have any transport and we try to save money for future used. Haha...Anyway, my girlfriend happy annivesary 1st month!!!

Promises 5 Years Later

Is left another one more month i finish my study for 3 years. At last i finish my degree at university.I should very proud of it. Before i graduate, i have such a lovely and cute girlfriend. She really encouraging and make me support me. I really have thanks to her. Even though, we just start for 3 weeks but i feel that our relationship is far more than that. Everyday we just keep text messaging from morning until night. We had plan our time very well. When revision time, we really just keep on revision without messaging each other. It makes like our job come first only think of relationship. I'm sorry if you think why i just keep messaging her. She dislike people to call her except for emergency call. That's why is better i keep on messaging her. Sometimes i will laugh myself when see her messaging. You all do non think she is small, cute and good smile girl. Actually, she is more fierce than you all think. Haha...Sorry!!!Shane!!!Just kidding!!!You really adorable for me.

For the past 3 weeks, we had chat about our future. We had plan to married if God and time really excuse us after 5 years. After 5 years, i really hope that our career could success. I would not compete our both career which of us much better. As long as we happy with ourselves and career is enough. 5 years seems not very short and a long time period. 5 years is going to make relationship much more better.Erm...it could stated as one step move further or one more stairs to climb higher. There are few promises i had do to Shanty after 5 years:

1)Married her if she willing...

2)Our career success

3) Have our own dream house

4) Honeymoon to Korea

5)Relationship much better and better

6) I would not stay away from her-job will at Sabah

7)No more 'jelek'

8)Save money together and no more wasteful

9)Let her working and i jaga anak-Cool!!!No need stress anymore...haha

Thats what i promises for her after 5 years for right now. Maybe later will be more and more. Haha....A week study break i did not meet her for almost 5 days. I have to tell her that i really miss her very much. 5 days did not meet her already killing myself. I could not imagine for next month i will not meet her for 2 months. After 2 months i gonna find job and start my career over there.Hope everything is smooth and God will accompany me for this succession.

Love Story of The First 10 Days

Yeah!!Yeah!! Never notice time pass so fast and we had together for 10 days. These 10 days are many things happen on us. Even tough we not always meet each other but i really felt when with her. Sometimes got a bit small arguement but it makes us for feel more understand each other. Each time i meet her surely she will complain of me. I admit i'm bad in appearance but surely i will change it in time. Maybe she want me to be to perfect people for her. I will just make myself like worse but i really happy each time saw her.

I admit i not good in persuasion if you not happy. But, i really try it. I'm sorry ya!!!In this 10 days, we had went to library, send her back home, had lunch and watch movie. Most of the time i with her will be at university. But, i really happy of it. Each time i unhappy, you always with me.

The most funny for me this few days that she always complain of me. Haha!!!I never complain anything at all. Anyway, i really happy that i have so much weakness and have to change of it. Haha!!!These 10 days really happy for me. Another a months left, i could not meet her for 2 months because of my internship. She is the strength of me...Love You Always

Something Cannot Be Return

For this blog, i'm not going to write about myself. I wanna show all of you about a short story that i had the idea when walked to the cafe of library with someone who special to me. Thanks for giving me the idea. In this story, every incident is not related to anyone is just a creation from my idea.

"Cherish, do you know that we going have a special dinner for tonight,"asked by Porter.

"I really don't know. Don't asked me what so special for it!I'm very busy right now,"answered by Cherish.

"Err...You just come you will know of it.7 pm i pick you at office and don't change your clothes. You always the princess in my heart,''said by Porter to Cherish.

Both of them hang up their mobile phone. When at 7 pm, Porter arrive at Cherish office and bring her to Summer Restaurant for their dinner.

"What day actually if for today and why bring me to this ugly and dirty restaurant,'' asked by Cherish.

With the disappointed look of Porter, he said back,"Actually, nothing special for today. I just have some urgent thing to tell you and why don't have our dinner first.

They have their dinner without saying any words. Once they have finish their dinner, Porter said to Cherish that he want to break up. Cherish act like normal and really agree of it. She also said that let them focus on their career.

After 5 months, Cherish realized that she never contact with Porter for few months. Porter never contact to her but just each of the early months send a letter to Cherish. But, Cherish never read at all and just keep the letter. She feel that Porter will come to her and apologize to her. For the next month, another letter mail it to Cherish. Cherish is not just accept the letter but a key with the house address. Cherish fell so curious and go to see the house.

She act like normal and think that Porter will apologize to her when open the house door. When she open the house door, she really get shock of it. She see that house really nice.

"This is my dream house and that's my design that i want to stay with Porter,"she said it politely.

"Porter, Where are you?Please come out now. I love you,"loudly asked by Cherish.

The balcony of the house could see the view of the sunset. All are furnish well in this house. Every picture that put under the wall were picture of Cherish and Porter. Cherish realize it has a letter above television. This time she open it the letter and read it. The letter wrote like this:

To the love of my Cherish,

This is my 5th letter wrote to you. But i know once you read this letter, i know that you had forgive me. I really happy that you forgive me. But, i could not come to meet you ever again. Never notice that i had past away for 3 months. Haha!!!I had suffered brain cancer for the last 2 years. Doctor had told me i could live in this world for the past few years. I never notice that cancer came too fast to me.

At first, i really angry with myself why i had brain cancer. By that time, i want to tell you about my case. But, you just got your job and i should not let you so much care of me. So,i just keep this as secret and let it past without you notice at all. I want your career and your dream to be successful.

You remember how I confess my love to you for the past 5 years? I confess my love to you at Summer Restaurant. Last 5 months, it was our 5th year annivesary for being couple. But, it also the sadness day for me. It is not because you not remember of it but it was the day that we break. I break with you is not because I do not love you but is I love you too much. I do want you to sad at all.

The moment we had together you told me to change everything. I had change for you and never comment any of it. Each time we argue i will be the one say sorry to you even tough you are wrong. Haha!!!Your attitude never been change but i will change. That's the way i like you. This house i had bought it last year and i plan that after we married stay at here. But, i think this house gonna for you to stay. That's our dream house.

What you had told me i never forget of it. Cherish, go to the makeup desk there. Open it and there is our wedding ring but i never dare to myself to propose it to you. Is because i don't much time i left. Each time i said i at outstation, actually i at hospital doing my check up. But, now i'm not here anymore and i just want you to accept my apologize that i said break up with you by that time. Sorry!!!

From, Porter

Tears that drop from Cherish never been stop and she just feel shame to herself why Porter do so much for her and she never notice of it. She ever blame for herself that never think of Porter at all. Now, Porter had gone everything cannot be return at all. It just left a memory for them.

Day We Have Apart

Times go by very fast and i gonna ending my degree soon. But, before ending my degree there is a thing which makes me happy in my whole life. 26 of March 2010 is the day i would not forget about it in my whole life. It is the day i will remember it because the love story on us has started of it.

That day is my school dinner which also my last dinner in my university. I had my performance of it which is modern dance. Haha!!!But i never nervous or worried of it. What i have done to let all of the audience know we had train for 10 days but we could achieved dance nice of that song.

It also not the main thing for me to do of it for the dinner. For the dinner is the time that i confess my love to one of my special people in my heart. On that night, she is the princess of the night which i still remember of it until today. She is wearing a black dinner dress with the whole attire is black except her bracer which is silver. I wear a black formal shirt and pants so that could partner with her. And what i thought is yes...That day we really look like black couple.

The way i confess love to her is very quiet and silence. I tell her quietly so none of the people know of it. But i tell her to type 4056830968 on her phone. As she type it she just has a cute smile on it. That night is the night that we start our relationship and i saw her had a bit jealous when i take photos with my coursemate. I also have to care of her feeling also. I understand of it. We had took a few sweet nice photos together.

As for now i really thanks to God and i hope that our relationship will become more stronger. The sweetness of our relationship is not come from body language but is come from our heart. Our relationship will be one step to another step and sooner become a hardest wall to be defeated.Haha!!!Sorry my blog is a bit weird!!!

The Days Is Not Enough

It still left one more month for me to stay at Sabah. At last i finish up my degree study at Sabah for 3 years. 3 years time for me is not long or short. Many memories for me in these 3 years. I had recognized many friends when i at Sabah. But, more importantly is she. She would make up my mind to stay at Sabah after my convocation.

Another one month left, what should i do? I still left one more week for me to practice for the dance for my performance. Do i have enough time? Haha...i hope that night our performance would not be so bad. Is really my enjoyment to make a performance for my last year in this faculty. Tomorrow is my faculty dean cup. It is a sports for my faculty. Anyway,i really do not have any mood to go for this dean cup. I feel so bored and extremly tired. Few more weeks for me to settle up my final year project. Do i have enough time to finish it? I really exhausted right now.

Sometimes, i really wanna rest and just leave it all the things. I just want to rest and rest. I just left 2 more group assignment for me to finish up. I think that was not a problem for me. I just hope i could enjoy my last month at here before i finish up my study

6th sem

Time pass so fast and i had studied at Sabah for almost 3 years. Time for 3 years could be really fast and it happened many things to me. For me i study in 6th semester is the best. It's not because it was my last year but it because i meet someone that really special for me. I meet her in my early semester but before that i had recognise her my faculty forest camp. When in camp, her group kitchen was beside me. By that time i only know her name.

At this semester, i meet her again. But this time, she was same class with me for my minor class. At that time we still just a normal friend. I and my best friend enter their gang group to do group assignment for this class. Is it fun? I really thought it was nice because know more about her. Sooner, i got her handphone number. By that time i had sms her. And, we just keep on sms each other very well. Some is fun and laugh. We keep chatting for 2 months and i really know that i have fall in love to her. Last week she invited me to go Sapi Island for her final year project. That trip was really fun and the best trip i have ever been before. I sincerly said is true.

Actually, in this blog i just want to tell her that i really love her. I sincerly said and i never play on u at all. I really serious on this. If u read this post....i just wan to tell u that i love you!!!

Chinese New Year Holiday At KL

So fast the time passed and now i back home to celebrate Chinese New Year with family. That's the greatest moment that i ever had in my life. When i in secondary school i felt family is very worst. My mum and dad always said bad on me and just ignore it. But, after i went to study at Sabah. I really felt family is very important.

F= Father

A= And

M=Mother

I=I

L=Love

Y=You

Is really sweet to back home but i also miss my F4 gang. They really my best buddies when i in Sabah. I won't forget them for my whole life and of course my 2 lovely 'adik angkat' in Sabah. Even though, they really like to make up be pretty but they still so funny and cute.

Time passes very fast and i had studied at Sabah for almost 3 years. Next few months i gonna graduate and going to find my job.

6 Days Holiday

My final semester make me feel very bored. I thought that i will be very busy such as have lab, assignments, and etc. But, i still continue do my final year project and my sample have not finish done yet. This week i have 6 days holiday which start from last Wednesday. Omg!!! Is have been 2 days i sit at home which facing the laptop. Everyday online will be open facebook...bored!!!

At last, Sabah had come to raining season which rain 3 days non-stop. Tonight i will be sleep without air-con in my room. But, surely i will have natural air-con in my room.Oooo...wat i'm saying..Wtf!!!I really hope tomorrow will not be rain again. I really feel boring of it.

Last Tuesday, i went saloon with Grace. At last, i had cut my hair and dye plus highlight. It makes me like new look. I really like it with hair colour. It feels like super star or rocker. haha...Is gonna be me!!! Sport School League is coming and i gonna to prepare to make my fitness. Maybe this is my last time to join sports for competition and after this i think i have to concentrate my career after graduate...

Semester break before New Year

I almost left my blog for 2 months without anything. My holiday totally demolish for me. At home really nothing to do except surfed net or play games. Luckily, this semester break i found out that i become quite addicted to 'k-pop'. Even though i do not understand their language but their voice sweet like my morning breakfast Honeystars.Hahaha!!! I admit that they really sexy and very hot especially Girl Generations, 2ne1 and After School. But, i still love my Korean singer BOA. Her near single album 'White Wishes' which show her a new image. I found out that she really mature and pretty. For past two months, i had download around 16 Korean singer discography. With their voice my holiday would not be very bored. haha!!!

On the 2nd week of December, i with my best friend which his nickname is 'Baby Face' with my cousin and her friends climbed the highest mountain in South East Asia. That is Mount Kinabalu. I never thought that climb Mount Kinabalu was a difficult route for me to climb. Once i reach at Mesilau Nature Resort i feel...yeah is wonderful to be there. For the first day, we climbed to Laban rata had used almost 8 hours to reach there. Every 1km i wanna take a rest. Is really keep suffering for me to take a heavy bag which almost 8 kg. The view at Laban rata was wonderful and the sunset is marvelous. I knew that every place of sunset is different. They really lucky because could see twice sunset at different places which at Tanjung Aru and Laban rata. The next day we have to wake up at 1.30 am which most of my friend still have not sleep by that time. We had our supper at 2.00 am then continue our journey to the highest peak which aboout 3km. Even though is 3km but it took me almost 3 hours to reach there. When i climb to the peak. i asking myself why i have to be suffer climb Mount Kinabalu and paid almost RM500. Is totally ridiculous for me. I admit i did not have any energy to climb at all. I really feel tired and my leg keep shaking when i climb to the peak. I almost give up. Luckily, i saw a German tourist which he same group with me to climb Mount Kinabalu. He told me that our mind must be positive and think that we can climb on top of it. With his advice i really could climb to the peak. I reach the peak at 5.20 am and could see the beautiful sunrise. Is like a small golden egg which rise up to sky! Oh yeah!!This is my first time that i step at mountain which above the cloud. Is really wonderful memory for me.

For my christmas eve celebration, i and my coursemate had made steamboat dinner at my coursemate house. Is really wonderful even though is just a simple steamboat dinner. This our last year and maybe our last dinner gathering before we graduate. I really miss the moment that we together. Everyday before i slept, i will keep thinking how i act was when in first year and first step at Kota Kinabalu. Time passes so fast and that gone away for 3 years. They are really wonderful to me especially my F4 gang. There are my first friend at Sabah when i come into university. Maybe, next time we had the gathering will bring their wife or husband or maybe children. Anyway, really thanks to you all!!! Is nothing special for my christmas eve celebration but is the meaningful and memoriable gathering for me.

Last few days before 2009, i found out that my camera and my sunglasses were lost. I keep searching for my whole house but never find it at all. At last, i realize that my camera and sunglasses keep it at the car that i rent for it last two weeks. Omg!!!it had last long for two weeks and i feel it lost it. I went to that shop and asked but they said they never found it. Maybe they lying to me or something else. If they do not want to admit i really do not have anything to say!!!That really sad things for me before 2009.