True Love

What is love?Hard to find it out. Is it that spend our life happily with your partner that is called love? How people sacrifice their love? Love really have many meaning for me. But, i just found out my true love. She is the last one and my last love. Our fate is depending on the time which after 5 years from now on. I admit in my whole life i had done many wrong things but i sure that never done anything wrong to her. She is really special for me. What she like i will try my best to get over for it. Remember, get something with not using money. Whatever say about money she will waste and how we going to save it for 5 years. Haha...That's we really less to go out and meet each other. Next week Monday, it was her last paper of the exam and could be the last time i meet her in university. Of course i deeply very sad because meet her for the last time. After her exam, i will help her to do final year project at Sapi Island. Then, we will separate for 2months only could meet again. That's really our test. We will never meet at all and even a call for 2 months. As i said before, she really dislike people to call. Anywhere, this will make me much worry of her. If anything happen to her, i think she would not tell me of it. Maybe drop by sms to tell me that she will be okay. Anyway, i could not imagine my life for 2 months without her. I have to thanks to her to change many bad things from me. I just wanna plan a special and memorable date for us before i back to KL. For a day i did not seen her i much miss her. I wanna tell you that I love you!!!

Love Story of The First Month

Time passed very fast and never knew that is already a month that we had together.Haha...My girlfriend, Happy 1st month annivesary. We do not plan any celebration at all because busy of exam. Maybe we celebrate this annivesary with exam papers.Haha...In this 1 month, we have tried to our relationship more deeper and deeper. Jokes and advice make us feel our relationship more wonderful. We had our 1st date at the largest shopping mall at 1borneo. Our 1st date movie to watch never thought was horror movie which we could imagine not as horror as we wanted. Haha...That's the best day we went date for it. My girlfriend was quite a big bully to me but i feel it was funny and could not resist from laughing. We also try to change our bad attitude which i try to become more hygiene. For her, this is the most important. I also had received the first gift from her which is a quite and black bracer. She told me to wear it all the times because it represent her to be with me all the times. In the 2nd week of our relationship, she dedicated a song for our relationship which is 'Falling Slowly'.For this 1st month i heard some comment from friend. Hey, i heard that you have girlfriend and where she is come from. I answered and from Penampang. Once my friend heard that he was shock and said the most expensive girl in Sabah was Penampang girl. I told my friend that our love not count as money but by our sincere heart. I poor also try to save and earn the money and to give her to most warm family that she ever get. We really seldom meet each other and just drop by sms. But, it could make our relationship more last longer. What can i do?I do not have any transport and we try to save money for future used. Haha...Anyway, my girlfriend happy annivesary 1st month!!!

Promises 5 Years Later

Is left another one more month i finish my study for 3 years. At last i finish my degree at university.I should very proud of it. Before i graduate, i have such a lovely and cute girlfriend. She really encouraging and make me support me. I really have thanks to her. Even though, we just start for 3 weeks but i feel that our relationship is far more than that. Everyday we just keep text messaging from morning until night. We had plan our time very well. When revision time, we really just keep on revision without messaging each other. It makes like our job come first only think of relationship. I'm sorry if you think why i just keep messaging her. She dislike people to call her except for emergency call. That's why is better i keep on messaging her. Sometimes i will laugh myself when see her messaging. You all do non think she is small, cute and good smile girl. Actually, she is more fierce than you all think. Haha...Sorry!!!Shane!!!Just kidding!!!You really adorable for me.

For the past 3 weeks, we had chat about our future. We had plan to married if God and time really excuse us after 5 years. After 5 years, i really hope that our career could success. I would not compete our both career which of us much better. As long as we happy with ourselves and career is enough. 5 years seems not very short and a long time period. 5 years is going to make relationship much more better.Erm...it could stated as one step move further or one more stairs to climb higher. There are few promises i had do to Shanty after 5 years:

1)Married her if she willing...

2)Our career success

3) Have our own dream house

4) Honeymoon to Korea

5)Relationship much better and better

6) I would not stay away from her-job will at Sabah

7)No more 'jelek'

8)Save money together and no more wasteful

9)Let her working and i jaga anak-Cool!!!No need stress anymore...haha

Thats what i promises for her after 5 years for right now. Maybe later will be more and more. Haha....A week study break i did not meet her for almost 5 days. I have to tell her that i really miss her very much. 5 days did not meet her already killing myself. I could not imagine for next month i will not meet her for 2 months. After 2 months i gonna find job and start my career over there.Hope everything is smooth and God will accompany me for this succession.

Love Story of The First 10 Days

Yeah!!Yeah!! Never notice time pass so fast and we had together for 10 days. These 10 days are many things happen on us. Even tough we not always meet each other but i really felt when with her. Sometimes got a bit small arguement but it makes us for feel more understand each other. Each time i meet her surely she will complain of me. I admit i'm bad in appearance but surely i will change it in time. Maybe she want me to be to perfect people for her. I will just make myself like worse but i really happy each time saw her.

I admit i not good in persuasion if you not happy. But, i really try it. I'm sorry ya!!!In this 10 days, we had went to library, send her back home, had lunch and watch movie. Most of the time i with her will be at university. But, i really happy of it. Each time i unhappy, you always with me.

The most funny for me this few days that she always complain of me. Haha!!!I never complain anything at all. Anyway, i really happy that i have so much weakness and have to change of it. Haha!!!These 10 days really happy for me. Another a months left, i could not meet her for 2 months because of my internship. She is the strength of me...Love You Always

Something Cannot Be Return

For this blog, i'm not going to write about myself. I wanna show all of you about a short story that i had the idea when walked to the cafe of library with someone who special to me. Thanks for giving me the idea. In this story, every incident is not related to anyone is just a creation from my idea.

"Cherish, do you know that we going have a special dinner for tonight,"asked by Porter.

"I really don't know. Don't asked me what so special for it!I'm very busy right now,"answered by Cherish.

"Err...You just come you will know of it.7 pm i pick you at office and don't change your clothes. You always the princess in my heart,''said by Porter to Cherish.

Both of them hang up their mobile phone. When at 7 pm, Porter arrive at Cherish office and bring her to Summer Restaurant for their dinner.

"What day actually if for today and why bring me to this ugly and dirty restaurant,'' asked by Cherish.

With the disappointed look of Porter, he said back,"Actually, nothing special for today. I just have some urgent thing to tell you and why don't have our dinner first.

They have their dinner without saying any words. Once they have finish their dinner, Porter said to Cherish that he want to break up. Cherish act like normal and really agree of it. She also said that let them focus on their career.

After 5 months, Cherish realized that she never contact with Porter for few months. Porter never contact to her but just each of the early months send a letter to Cherish. But, Cherish never read at all and just keep the letter. She feel that Porter will come to her and apologize to her. For the next month, another letter mail it to Cherish. Cherish is not just accept the letter but a key with the house address. Cherish fell so curious and go to see the house.

She act like normal and think that Porter will apologize to her when open the house door. When she open the house door, she really get shock of it. She see that house really nice.

"This is my dream house and that's my design that i want to stay with Porter,"she said it politely.

"Porter, Where are you?Please come out now. I love you,"loudly asked by Cherish.

The balcony of the house could see the view of the sunset. All are furnish well in this house. Every picture that put under the wall were picture of Cherish and Porter. Cherish realize it has a letter above television. This time she open it the letter and read it. The letter wrote like this:

To the love of my Cherish,

This is my 5th letter wrote to you. But i know once you read this letter, i know that you had forgive me. I really happy that you forgive me. But, i could not come to meet you ever again. Never notice that i had past away for 3 months. Haha!!!I had suffered brain cancer for the last 2 years. Doctor had told me i could live in this world for the past few years. I never notice that cancer came too fast to me.

At first, i really angry with myself why i had brain cancer. By that time, i want to tell you about my case. But, you just got your job and i should not let you so much care of me. So,i just keep this as secret and let it past without you notice at all. I want your career and your dream to be successful.

You remember how I confess my love to you for the past 5 years? I confess my love to you at Summer Restaurant. Last 5 months, it was our 5th year annivesary for being couple. But, it also the sadness day for me. It is not because you not remember of it but it was the day that we break. I break with you is not because I do not love you but is I love you too much. I do want you to sad at all.

The moment we had together you told me to change everything. I had change for you and never comment any of it. Each time we argue i will be the one say sorry to you even tough you are wrong. Haha!!!Your attitude never been change but i will change. That's the way i like you. This house i had bought it last year and i plan that after we married stay at here. But, i think this house gonna for you to stay. That's our dream house.

What you had told me i never forget of it. Cherish, go to the makeup desk there. Open it and there is our wedding ring but i never dare to myself to propose it to you. Is because i don't much time i left. Each time i said i at outstation, actually i at hospital doing my check up. But, now i'm not here anymore and i just want you to accept my apologize that i said break up with you by that time. Sorry!!!

From, Porter

Tears that drop from Cherish never been stop and she just feel shame to herself why Porter do so much for her and she never notice of it. She ever blame for herself that never think of Porter at all. Now, Porter had gone everything cannot be return at all. It just left a memory for them.

Day We Have Apart

Times go by very fast and i gonna ending my degree soon. But, before ending my degree there is a thing which makes me happy in my whole life. 26 of March 2010 is the day i would not forget about it in my whole life. It is the day i will remember it because the love story on us has started of it.

That day is my school dinner which also my last dinner in my university. I had my performance of it which is modern dance. Haha!!!But i never nervous or worried of it. What i have done to let all of the audience know we had train for 10 days but we could achieved dance nice of that song.

It also not the main thing for me to do of it for the dinner. For the dinner is the time that i confess my love to one of my special people in my heart. On that night, she is the princess of the night which i still remember of it until today. She is wearing a black dinner dress with the whole attire is black except her bracer which is silver. I wear a black formal shirt and pants so that could partner with her. And what i thought is yes...That day we really look like black couple.

The way i confess love to her is very quiet and silence. I tell her quietly so none of the people know of it. But i tell her to type 4056830968 on her phone. As she type it she just has a cute smile on it. That night is the night that we start our relationship and i saw her had a bit jealous when i take photos with my coursemate. I also have to care of her feeling also. I understand of it. We had took a few sweet nice photos together.

As for now i really thanks to God and i hope that our relationship will become more stronger. The sweetness of our relationship is not come from body language but is come from our heart. Our relationship will be one step to another step and sooner become a hardest wall to be defeated.Haha!!!Sorry my blog is a bit weird!!!