Hidden In My Heart

Little by little river flow to sea,

It just like feeling towards on you,

I just wish to hug you,

And together see the rainbow at top of the hill,

There is something hidden in my heart.

From the bottom of my broken heart,

You always persuade and support me,

I feel proud that I had you,

Because you are the greatest girlfriend in the world,

You are the part that hidden in my heart.

Silent night could be the best for us,

Piano that I always wish to learn,

Play a love song in front of you,

Just to propose my love to you,

Be my wife is always hidden in my heart.

View sunset is the best moment with you,

We had shared coconut drink,

Could be this moment pause for it forever,

Because I want stay with you forever,

It had hidden in my heart.

Is The Day I Start To Say I Love You

Love story had started since 8 months ago,

Total days that i saw you less than 30 days,

Some people said 2703 is the number to buy for horse racing,

But, it is the day we start our love story,

Is the day I start to say I love you.

Every morning couple of birds are singing,

But, i just have to message her to say Good Morning,

A hug and kiss was just a dream for you and me,

Every words we chat is all by phone,

Is the day I start to say I love you.

Distance of our relationship make us more apart,

Bless and support from you always i received,

T-shirts that you give always warm me when i wore,

Argue always make me more understand each other,

Is the day I start to say I love you.

Falling Slowly

'Falling slowly' is the song written and performed by Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova from the movie 'Once'. It also the first couple song for me and Shane. Next week is half year anniversary for us. Usually we just wishing for it. Another few weeks i will meet my girlfriend. I really miss her so much. Even though i can only meet her for a week but is really meaningful for us. It will be my convocation celebration, celebrate my girlfriend birthday and the first time that my girlfriend meet my parents. She always tell me she very nervous and scare that my parents dislike her. I just tell her do not scare. I will always be your defending wall. No matter what happen i will beside you.

'Falling slowly' will be the first duet we sing. My girlfriend love this song so much. She ask me to learn to sing this song. I tell her that my voice not good in singing. She seems do not care of it and tell me to learn only. Falling slowly was like to fall in love each other step by step. Time will let you know how you love it.

Fall In Love

Another 11 days, i and my girlfriend had been together for 6 months. Time passes so fast that we had together for 6 months. 6 months we together but we just had meet for a month and 5 months we had long distance relationship. For the past few months i really suffer. I miss her so much and i always think when i could meet her. Everyday i just could message her or just webcam to see each other. Internet line at Sabah is more worse than we thought and sometimes my girlfriend could not on for the messenger. I love her so much. Time we had together is very short but the obstacles that we overcome is too much. In future, there had more and more obstacle to overcome for it...haha...Love u so much dear!!!Another one month left from today is our birthday. I'm sorry that i could not celebrate birthday with you. I hope that i could celebrate early birthday with you. Gominawo oku dika!!!muacks

Good or Bad Bf

For the past few months, a question always came across my mind how to be a good boyfriend? It is very easy to answer. Take care your girlfriend, protect your girlfriend, understand her feeling, and when she is unhappy you must be right beside her. It is easy to answer but have i ever done all this before. I admit that i never done this before. I and my girlfriend have been for 5 months but we have been together for the first month. The left i was at KL for my industrial training and find my job. I really not even at her side when she doing her research at island. I feel i very worst boyfriend that i ever knew. My dear, i'm very sorry for it!!!Last week, you had gastric. Vomit and faint, i also not there. I just knew by your message. I really disappointed myself why i was not at there when you sick plus i just only advice you. Huhu!!!For yesterday incident i also apologize to you. I treat my junior as a friend. Actually, i really caring all my friend. Any friends need help i will tried my best to help them. Maybe this is my principle of my life. Has a friend better than have 10 enemy. Today morning i know that u will angry of me. I really never saw you angry before until like this. I do not know how to make you happy of it and i not at your side also. I just know how to say sorry. I know no matter how i explain you will angry of it. Once wrong is wrong. I'm sorry my dear. I not a good boyfriend ever in you dictionary also. I just know sms and call you to care of you only. After my convo, i will try my best more often back to visit u. I'm sorry!!!

Do You Believe Long Distance Relantionship?

Whole day i asked myself one question do you believe in long distance relationship? Because of this question i almost had a small argued with my girl friend. I really give her too many promises until i feel that she hardly trust me. At first i tell her once i finish my internship i will back to KK meet her. But, now i still stay at KL without doing anything. Now, my dad tell me to work at KL but it seems easier for me to earn the money. Work at KK really hard because the salary is too low for me. I had promised her that i will start everything once i work at KL. This few days i already settle down to work at KL. Once i set for this answer, it makes my relationship with my girl friend become long distance. I really make her much disappointed my girl friend. The way i talk to her i really feel it. This time i really hurt her. No matter how i make her happy is no used anymore. I want her to trust me that i work at KL i still love her. From today i said this, tomorrow and forever is still the same word i will tell her I love you.

Do you believe in long distance relationship? Even herself no believe at all. She hurt before because of long distance relationship. I wanna tell her this time i really need you fully to trust me that i really in believe in this. Is already 3 months i did not meet my girl friend. I could tell you that i really miss her. Who said i do not want to meet her? If i have money to buy my flight ticket sure i will go meet her right now. Everyday before i sleep, i will think what will happen to our relationship on tomorrow. I feel like i'm very worst right now. Nothing i can help to prove it. Baby girl, should i say sorry to this that i break the promise i not coming to KK for work? 5 years only baby girl. Just give me 5 years everything will be back as the promise i tell you. Is that ok for 5 years?

Many friends told me why i do not want to bring my girl friend to KL. This matter i had think before. It really not work. My girl friend really scared to meet people plus she really dislike to communicate with other people at all. The safety in KL i could say 5 times worst than KK. Her safety work in KL i have to care of it. I also not allowed for her to work at KL. She could be easily get lie by other people. Dear, i just want you to believe in this. Maybe our fate is important but i trust this relationship will be much better for each year in long distance relationship. Dear, I love you!!!

Kiss The Rain

Wow...Is almost 2 months i had never updated my blog at all. Today i start to update my blog again. Hear the music Kiss The Rain by Yiruma really build up my mood to update the blog. From this music it had remind me on May 18 is the last day i meet my girlfriend. As i remember that day was still sunny day. Early morning, i have to go Hospital Likas all the way to meet my girlfriend. It was the first time i saw her that she wear the t-shirt i bought to her. I was very happy to see her wear it and she was pretty that day.

It was very hard for me to say goodbye to her because saying goodbye means i will never return back again. I'm not saying goodbye to her is to tell her that i will always at her side to accompany her. That's where we start our long relationship distance until now. I also do not know when will i back to meet her. I admit i really miss her.

Last week, she told me what will do for the first thing if see her. I say i will hug her and said i would not and forever let her alone. By hearing her voice once a week, is very happy for me but i really miss her cutie face.Haha...Kiss the rain

Kiss The Rain tell me that song the alone stand in rain feel very sad. Stand in rain alone it really become wet and need wait for the partner to come and bring umbrella to shade for her. Unfortunately, this girl wait and wait until exhausted while kiss the rain. Cry at the rain no people will see. She feel herself very lonely and lonely.

My dear, for this song is really sad. But, i promise you i will tell you all my plan and i would not leave you alone at there.I want you right with me...